Lens

Your face fell from the sky and pulled apart into pieces I could barely recognize. The wind took you away from me again and no longer could the stars add up to how much I missed you.

Lose me

I hate saying good-bye. I immediately get upset when I know the time is near. It didn't help that his night was not what he wanted and small comments that were made didn't lift the tension. Even recently, where our days have been making up for what's been trying to be taken away. But I know this. We are molded too good to collapse. I'm not really sure if anyone takes our relationship as serious as we do. Maybe they see us moving too fast. I know many people aren't ready for that when they enter a relationship so they can't see how, or why, we would be so close. Honestly blogger, it's because I feel so connected to him. When he's not around I feel so alone. Like today in math class, my teacher made me switch to another group. (not sure why) It was so awkward sitting there while they're three steps ahead, impatiently waiting for me to catch up. I felt like I was back at Urban Outfitters and my card got declined. Ah I could hear her tapping my card against the desk, again. I felt embarrassed and unwanted. The whole time I wished he could be there so that I could feel his peace and comfort, telling me it's okay, I'll get it. It's almost crazy how well our minds can read each other but I am happy with him. I truly am. I've never felt so alive, but when I don't hear from him, or get the chance to see him…. I've never felt so dead. I hate saying good-bye.

Tonight

will be a good night. I can feel it.

Just let me run where I want to run

You faded in the picture that you still try to look at. Her face has vanished because now she smiles. You rely on paint to fix your damage but her color wasn't yellow, it was black and blue. Don't make a move thinking you'll get your way this time. The clock kept on ticking to where you don't belong. She ran to open arms. She ran to freedom. She found a home in a place she never knew. You couldn't bring her that sense of direction. No. You couldn't even bring her you.








I'm happy, I'm in love with the greatest guy in the world.

Flightless bird

I love when songs find you and you fall in love with it. It makes everything bad in your life turn to good. It helps you remember the beauty of things and why we are here. And why we do the things we do. Why we love the way we love.

Don't forget me

I feel very unsure with where anything is going. Although my days have been a big routine of school, work, and hanging out things still seem very shaken. Anything can happen at any moment. I'm so unsteady and yet so at peace. I'm not sure how to describe this feeling. I feel very sure and unsure about things. I feel very safe and unsafe about things. I'm learning something new every day and I'm finding myself along the way.

At the moment,

I'm really happy and inspired.

Like a giraffe, you have to climb to find its head

Make with what you have
take the good and bad
don't be forgetful
Take what you have
and hold it towards the sky
don't be resentful
The world keeps on spinning......
There's always a reason to hang on
just like any cut on your arm
bandage it up and it will not heal
but give it time, let it feel
Because you gotta make with what you have
take the good and remember the bad
watch your steps and look ahead
and soon you will see the giraffe's head

You're special

He says don't worry I've got this
But I’m having bad feelings
And if this starts to get out of hand
The doubts will start kicking in
I know it's not what you had in mind
To look out and leave the world behind
Or to hold my hand to lead the way
And get out of this heaving parade
But since the stars can go back in time
Would you hit rewind?
It's too late for me and I don't want that choice
I'm all shined out next to your voice
And I'd rather have it that way
Than no way at all
Because even though I'm standing still
You're the one that made me fall

Stay with me

I don't want to be alone.




.........without you.

Hmmm

There are many reasons emotions spin the way they do. Certain words, situations, things that happen through out the day....

They get you to the end of the night.
And they help you understand.
And it makes you see things you didn't see before.