So long, Good-bye

I've been getting into the band 10 years - hence the title. I don't really care what you have to say about that blogger; I like what I like.

Besides the fact that I'm singing along to this amazing song, I choose the title for another reason. This week has been my favorite of all. Not because I've done something exciting, it's actually quite opposite. I've spent this whole week attending my speech class for an hour then hanging out with my family. I'd go support my little brother with his baseball games, even when they're out in Hesperia and we find out as soon as we get there that the game's been cancelled due to the storm and lightening. I guess that's what happens when you go in seperate cars, but that's beside the point. I spent this whole week reflecting my family: having joy and relief and letting God be in charge. I didn't worry about my heart. I didn't worry about missing someone. I didn't worry about putting the effort anymore. It was my week with the most important people to me.

I've realized this "so long, goodbye" has been a struggle for the last four months, but I'm finally able to agree with everyone who's been getting me through this: I can let go and move on. I've had to do this a few times before, but when you don't imagine it happening again it hurts you more because you've been disappointed, or let down. Especially when you put your whole heart into something just to find out you've gotten burned in the end makes you not want to try again. And I'm not saying I am trying again, however I am afraid to. But that's why we have God, right? To turn to, to lean on, and to even rejoice with.

Step 1. Let go
- You've done it before. You've let go of the past. Now let go of this pain.

Step 2. Move forward
- Not in the sense of someone new, not "to replace", but in the sense of Get on with your life! Don't let heart ache bring you down. You are stronger than this.

Step 3. Take a look around
- You have everything you will ever need. Isn't that crazy? You don't have to look for it, you don't have to fight for it, it's in your hands!

So I guess I'll close this with the chorus. "So long, this is goodbye May we meet again in another life Like strangers passing by May we see it clearly in a different light"