Boy---Friend

Reading through old journals makes time seem like it hasn't gone by. Nothing's changed. I'm taking my own advice from 2005. Which is simply, "You need to have your own backbone, before you know you'll fall without them." After every break up, are we always in search for love again, even when we don't want, or need it?

My friends will tell me DO NOT DATE, and my head agrees, but my heart is longing. I'm so used to someone there, 24/7, that when some new guy comes into my life my head thinks "what a good friend" while my heart is asking, "potential boyfriend?" Does this mean we have to use our heads instead of our hearts?

Lord knows my hearts desire in a relationship and He also knows when I'm ready for it. The time will come. I don't know why I stress about it. I don't know why I must plan everything out, why I must create my own Prince, when God WILL deliver. It's nothing to chase after. So I'll put an anchor in the water from my love boat. I'm not ready to sail the shore. The waves are too rough and the water will come in. I would sink in this love boat of mine.

Lets be patient. Lets enjoy the scenery. You could miss it if you don't pay attention........

"Too many shadows in my room
too many hours in this midnight
too many corners in my mind
so much to do to set my heart right
Oh its taking too long
i could be wrong
i could be ready
Oh but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume, it's still unsteady

I am in repair"